Hasn't it been forever? My apologies to all of you who have been looking forward to reading my posts. It has been a rough time with the site acting up and all but am glad i am here .Last weekend i had the worst melt down ever...in fact in all melt down history this will have a strong 12 out if 10 Completely broken. I sat next to my best friend and just broke down, i wasn't sure why i felt so messed up it had been a merry evening to say the least but i just forgot all the laughter i was shivering, scared of something i had not faced before.
My friend held me and said i should let go, but i have already let go of all the madness around me i told myself why was i hang onto some pain that i thought was over.
I remember putting up the post different voices with so much positivity, in fact that was the exact feeling i could call rebirth. I had a sense of victory i had won something, i wasn't sure what exactly but am sure in my heart and mind i was holding a very huge trophy, how come a week later i am wrecked, it was like i had slept and woken up 10 months ago. I just could not understand it.
My friend held me and said i should let go, but i have already let go of all the madness around me i told myself why was i hang onto some pain that i thought was over.
I remember putting up the post different voices with so much positivity, in fact that was the exact feeling i could call rebirth. I had a sense of victory i had won something, i wasn't sure what exactly but am sure in my heart and mind i was holding a very huge trophy, how come a week later i am wrecked, it was like i had slept and woken up 10 months ago. I just could not understand it.
The next morning ,well my life was in order well maybe it was in a better state, and i remember coming across this picture in my gallery fall in love with your life,but it sounded impossible, at that time because i felt so much anger,pain,regret within me,how would i fall in love with that? i felt like i should payback maybe i'd have gotten some sense of relief, but how long would that have lasted? I would still be as messed up.
I have never understood why tears are viewed as a sign of weakness. I felt so strong once i let it out. I hate the idea that a situation will affect me a long time after its occurrence. I feel chained to something that i cannot change. This should be considered the worst form of emotion... Sad thing this is the reality,that things that happened in the past will haunt our present if we do not confront them.
Deep down i know am yet to get to the point where i can stand and say i am very okay with all that goes on around me, what i have gone through, what i am going through, and what i am yet to encounter. But i have acknowledged that i will experience more melt downs along the way and at the end i will look at all this as stepping stones to the strong person i am growing into. Besides am only human.
With love, stay fly.
I have never understood why tears are viewed as a sign of weakness. I felt so strong once i let it out. I hate the idea that a situation will affect me a long time after its occurrence. I feel chained to something that i cannot change. This should be considered the worst form of emotion... Sad thing this is the reality,that things that happened in the past will haunt our present if we do not confront them.
Deep down i know am yet to get to the point where i can stand and say i am very okay with all that goes on around me, what i have gone through, what i am going through, and what i am yet to encounter. But i have acknowledged that i will experience more melt downs along the way and at the end i will look at all this as stepping stones to the strong person i am growing into. Besides am only human.
With love, stay fly.