Stop it...okay? The little voices in ny head kept shouting. Well they are not so little after all because all i do is listen.
I needed to stop sweating the small stuff. I needed to stop worrying if am good enough as a friend, good enough as sister, good enough as a girlfriend.
I needed to stop feeling inadequate to stop feeling like i didn't match up to people expectations , like i wasnt giving enough of my time, my emotions, my love.
I needed to stop saying that it is impossible, that no one has done it before, that i cannot handle the pressure.
I needed to stop making excuses when i failed, making excuses for those who failed me, making excuses about people, making excuses about circumstances.
I needed to stop blaming myself for things that did not work out, blaming others when they failed.
I needed to stop allowing emotions to control me, allowing emotions to dictate me, allowing emotions to define me.
I needed to stop and think, stop and reflect, stop and breathe,stop and imagine, stop and believe, stop and allow, stop and stand.
I needed to give myself a break, i needed to appreciate myself i needed to stop sweating the small stuff , it wasn't worth it,it will never be
I needed to stop sweating the small stuff. I needed to stop worrying if am good enough as a friend, good enough as sister, good enough as a girlfriend.
I needed to stop feeling inadequate to stop feeling like i didn't match up to people expectations , like i wasnt giving enough of my time, my emotions, my love.
I needed to stop saying that it is impossible, that no one has done it before, that i cannot handle the pressure.
I needed to stop making excuses when i failed, making excuses for those who failed me, making excuses about people, making excuses about circumstances.
I needed to stop blaming myself for things that did not work out, blaming others when they failed.
I needed to stop allowing emotions to control me, allowing emotions to dictate me, allowing emotions to define me.
I needed to stop and think, stop and reflect, stop and breathe,stop and imagine, stop and believe, stop and allow, stop and stand.
I needed to give myself a break, i needed to appreciate myself i needed to stop sweating the small stuff , it wasn't worth it,it will never be