All along i have known that my greatest fear was to lose, i am very competitive, so i am talking on losing on anything will break me ,be it to lose in my school work, my ambitions,losing on love,friendship. I am the kind of person who will always give 100% in anything i believe in.
My life has been a roller coaster of emotions from love, laughter, anger ,pain name it all,but i learned that sometimes losing is just a stage of growth. Letting go is never a sign of weakness.That has been one lesson.
I had lost my identity in all this confusion, trusting the same things that broke me felt like relieving a past that i shut down. I felt like i was feeding on the same poison that almost killed me. I was chocking on the promises that failed me. I was drowning in the innocence that i held on to. It has been a struggle but i got up eventually.
My life has been a roller coaster of emotions from love, laughter, anger ,pain name it all,but i learned that sometimes losing is just a stage of growth. Letting go is never a sign of weakness.That has been one lesson.
I had lost my identity in all this confusion, trusting the same things that broke me felt like relieving a past that i shut down. I felt like i was feeding on the same poison that almost killed me. I was chocking on the promises that failed me. I was drowning in the innocence that i held on to. It has been a struggle but i got up eventually.
I am not the kind of person who will open up about pain , i will want to listen to a friend know what he or she is going through. I would want to always be there. I don't want at the end to feel like i did not use my courage to change lives. At the end i want to have left a mark.
I began a journey of loving me, choosing me my second lesson. I set out to discover what helps me, finding out who is real choosing to improve on me daily, in terms of being book smart, street smart, being a better friend, a better sister and a better daughter
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It has been worth while. Some times we feel like we are alone in our messes , with happy posts on Facebook, happy selfies on Instagram it is impossible to understand what people are going through. All in all the pain is worth it, helps you understand your strengths helps you find the hero in you and best of it all it helps you build others and not break them down.
It has been worth while. Some times we feel like we are alone in our messes , with happy posts on Facebook, happy selfies on Instagram it is impossible to understand what people are going through. All in all the pain is worth it, helps you understand your strengths helps you find the hero in you and best of it all it helps you build others and not break them down.
If working out makes you feel good, taking ice cream brightens a dull day, laughing uncontrollably makes you feel better, learn about yourself learn to fall in love with yourself, you owe yourself love and a lot more.
This has been my greatest lesson so far and as i turn an year younger i hope to influence others more, that will be how i want to celebrate this birthday and many more.....
With love,
stay fly